Have you ever started something, a goal, or a project and it just doesn’t turn out the way you imagined?
Or Maybe It doesn’t work?
Is this a Failure?
Maybe…
Or Maybe its a lesson to learn to be successful on your next attempt.
I started this journey with very simple goals and guidelines.
Am I following them? Well Kinda… Some would say yes, and some no…
Something needs to change or die off in order for the new growth to truly take root.
There is a lesson here & I am listening to the tarot one day at a time.
Day 9- Strength
When the unexpected pays you a visit!
Today, I had family issues that completely took me by surprise, and this would last a few weeks…
Remember to say calm, what and why I am doing what I am doing and begin to understand and feel, that I may need to adjust. This project may be different from how it began & that is okay…. Do not force this situation to work, just focus on your basic goal & adjust my schedule to keep the essentials and make the change.
Give yourself some love, acceptance, grace and keep moving forward with forgiveness.
If I can do this, You can do this too!
Day 10- The Hermit
Today is about isolation, and getting done what needs to be done!
I made sure the first thing I did after waking up was get a workout in and got my meal prep done.
Followed the protocol, and reflected on what really matters, and how will this victory make me feel.
I did not listen to anything other than instrumental music and guarded all my thoughts as I went introspective on the real why am I doing this…
I decided that It makes me happy & fills me up with energy…
End of day 30 minute walk made the feeling even better!
Day 11- wheel of fortune
Expect the unexpected.
Today was an unexpected turn of events, fitting that the wheel of fortune was the card of the day.
My car broke down and I had to fix it in order to continue on with life uninterrupted.
I fix my own cars, have always preferred to maintain my own vehicles.
Nobody will treat your vehicle better than you!
This did take a large portion of my day.
I was in the sun working outside on my vehicle sweating away for about 6 hours….
I counted this as my workout today.
It still counts right?
I think so.
Day 12- justice
Balance.
Sunday Fun-day!
Today was a recovery day from the hours out in the sun…
take the day off, you earned it!
Rest, Relax & Make some Art!
Day 13 – The hanged man
Is there a problem?
Back at it again today. Its Monday & routine should be followed today…
But why?
I have been all over the board with my workouts, the program hasn’t been followed as I wanted it to.
Life happened, My body wasn’t ready for some of the workouts and I needed extra rest & Recovery days.
Today, I followed the structure but really challenged myself on the why is this important to me?
What am I getting out of this?
Is this even working? Am I building momentum considering all the changes that I have had to make?
I found myself in another liminal space today!
Day 14- Death
Reality Hits Hard!
Another day of following a routine that I am unsure of the why am I here and now doing this.
Shame is very sneaky. Watch out for this Trap of the contemplation of the hanged man.
But this is a gift!
The shame is the part that must die & need to be let go.
My shame is this transformation is not going to plan like my last one did.
I am measuring my success from a former version of myself.
Day 15- temperance
Routine or Habit?
Another day down & the Habit of daily workouts / Walking / keeping an hour for physical fitness is still in place.
But…
It isn’t a routine. The job is getting done each day, but at different times.
Life has been Lifeing… Lol, is that a word? It is now!
How fitting Temperance is the card today.
My Ego wants a structure and routine and this identity of an image of what my transformation should be.
But…
My Reality is not matching up to the expectations of this ego.
The Job is getting done, Every day I set aside time and do the deeds, or if I miss a day, then I definitely make the next day a priority.
So the Habit is being formed without a Routine.
Temperance is about Tempering down the ego and allowing your spirit to shine with love and patients.
I love who I am, and with patients with myself I am building the life and habits that are important to my body mind and soul.
The package of change does not need to match the expectations of your ego.
Be happy with every small win no matter how it looks or acts!